Daring to dream,
what does that really mean?
Taking the risk
Quelling that voice that shouts,
"Who do you think you are?"
Pushing past well-meaning
friends and family who express
their fears of your likely failure
and the hurt it will cause you.
They think it's love, and
they really do love you.
But just as young parents want to
shield their little ones from hurt
there's a tendency to sigh and say,
"Are you sure? What if..." and that
"What if?" doesn't go to the brightest
but rather the darkest possibilities.
I know that feeling myself,
wanting to shield my kids from hurt or
disappointment, and cringing inside
when they pushed themselves
to try hard, against-the-odds, goals.
I was terrified they would fail and be thrown
off the mountain into the bone heap below.
We all know that tendency to protect
based on our own fear of failure,
our own experience of giving up rather than
finding ourselves in that humiliating bone heap.
We are certain that is the worst possibility
instead of realizing that failure (if it indeed happens)
is sweetly-salved if it comes from
taking a real risk.
We all take tumbles, big and small, and
manage to get up and right ourselves.
Sometimes the fall is harder,
especially if the climb
has consumed our every moment.
But the satisfaction of having tried
is laud-worthy in itself, and
we are changed by the journey.
Wiser, stronger, closer to our true selves.
Perhaps that's the purpose of risk,
to move ever closer to our authentic self.
Not the one others will accept
just to keep us safe,
but a brazen soul who
trusts the inner voice that whispers,
"Do it. It's right for you."
I am a native Texan who has lived for the past 30 years in Southern California. I am a published author of both short memoir and fiction, a two-time Pushcart nominee, a nationally award-winning writing coach, an editor, as well as a Licensed Professional Counselor in the state of Texas. In addition, I am the mother of three grown daughters of whom I am extremely proud, a grandmother of four darling children and the wife of a man I still love after 44 years.
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